Faith vs Fear

3 Jun

I’ve heard about Love vs Fear or Faith vs Fear for a while.  You can’t have both at the same time.  So I course, who wouldn’t pick Love and Faith?  Well, me, I guess, since I had forgotten about it and having been living in high level FEAR!!!!

During my coaching session, I discussed my anxiety and fear.  Of course, only I talked.  But, what I could see was that I worried when I couldn’t see how to accomplish something.  For example:

  • how to hit my goals at work
  • how to find a fabulous guy for my dream relationship
  • how to stop gaining weight and start losing again
  • how to deal with my upcoming move

When I can’t “SEE” how something will get done I get stressed out and anxious.  It’s not fun for anyone around me.

I have been focussing on what I DON’T want:

  • not hitting my goals
  • continuing to meet unavailable men
  • continuing to gain weight
  • being miserable when I move back in with my mom for the summer – HELP!!!!

I remembered during the conversation, that when I had hit my goals, lost the weight, and been more successful, I had been focusing on what I did want, not on what I didn’t.

I had learned how to visualize and affirm my dreams and goals after reading Jack Canfield’s Success Principles.  And it worked.

So, during my coaching call I decided that I would replace my fear with Faith and Relax instead of trying to force things.  And let go.

And of course today I forgot.  I was at my office, worried, forcing myself to make calls.  I wanted to set 2 more appointments and I finally gave up and went to get my hair “done,”  resigned that I would ever be successful again.

On my drive over, I remembered.  I let go of control and decided to have faith.  I would let go of this week’s dismal numbers.  I let the worry go.

And, wouldn’t you know it?  While I was covered in hair dye, I got a call from of my accounts.  She set up an appointment for next week.  A freaking miracle at 4:30 PM on Friday.  Then, I got an email from another account giving me the time for a presentation next Wednesday.  I gave up control and things started happening.  WOW!

Not knowing has paralyzed me for a while.  I decided to have “not knowing” become an Adventure, instead of something fraught with peril, worry and fear.  And, so far, for the last few hours, it’s been really fun.

So, tomorrow, when my son brings 60-70 of his closest friends to my tiny beach cottage to be fed, I am letting go of control.  I am going to have fun while he buys the food, feeds them and cleans up the mess.  I am literally not worried about it.  That is a miracle.

So, I am standing in Adventure, Faith and Freedom.  And, I hope to get a good night’s sleep AND, remember this tomorrow.  Until then, good night.




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