At a client – no on is coming to see me

22 Feb

So I decided to write.

I have been on such a high for the last few days.

And today, I am tired since I got in late from a seminar and still got up early to work out.

I am sitting in a beautiful library in an architect’s office and not only is nobody coming to see me, they are not even looking at me as they walk by.

I am all dressed up and have my computer ready, but ….. apparently for nothing.  And my biggest challenge is trying to stay awake.

When it’s been an hour I will leave and go to the next place.  And, if I have time, take a quick 5 minute nap in the car AND get a large coffee.

All I can think about is going home and going to bed.  If I didn’t have the second appointment, that’s where I would be.

OK – 25 more minutes here.  I have been very nervous lately.

Apparently, excitement and fear feel the same.  For me, it’s a jittery feeling in my chest.  With that is sometimes an upset stomach, and today, I feel like my skin is breaking out.

But, if fear is the same as excitement, then I am wondering if calling it excitement instead will also come with the side effects.  I’m going to try it.  When I feel the nervousness happeneing, I will call it opportunity and excitement instead and see what happens.

But for right now, I have to admit that I am just feeling tired and sick.

I have a purple circle under my eye that isn’t attractive.

My back is starting to hurt.

I just want to go home.

22 minutes left.

I really want to put my head down and go to sleep.  Would that be professional?

OK, after editing this blog I now have 16 minutes.  In 5 I will start to pack up.  I can do this.  No premium here, no claims, no nothing.  NADA!!!  Embarassing, but no one has to know I wasted my time.  Glad the associate who was supposed to come could not make it.  I’d hate for her to know how much this sucked.

Well, that’s it.  It amazes me how I could go from everything being great yesterday to SUCK today.  I guess that’s life and why it will never be boring.  Isn’t that exciting?

Thanks for listening.



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