9-5-12I hav…

 9-5-12

I have a couple of minutes left to sit in a client’s office so I will take the time to put in an entry.  I don’t know what I will say, but……here goes….

I am nervous about the triathlon which is coming up in 5 days.  I am not doing well at the running part at all.  It hurts and I hate every minute of it, but……I did it anyway.  I didn’t double the 2.2 miles, but I did a few tenths more.  I just couldn’t wait to get off that *&*%*(% treadmill.

Yesterday at weight watchers, even though  I was down .6, I am still a few up from a few weeks ago and I cried and told them how negative I am AND how very frustrated I am.  I told them I was doing a triathlon and they were all impressed and didn’t know why I was negative.  My goal is to focus on the positive.  AND, I added that I would not use weekly points for alcohol during the week.  If I don’t have any daily points left, I will not have a drink.  I have lasted one day.  YEAH!!!!  I don’t really need the extra points, so let’s see how it goes.

We are crunching to get an associate over her Fireball award.  We have pumped lots of premium her way.  The stress if that we don’t get the money back if we don’t get her over the amount.  It needs to process and be issued within 2 days.  I wake up thinking about the numbers and it is stressful and exhilarating at the same time.  I am sitting at one of the bus companies until noon today.  I may actually go in my car after this and take a nap.  Don’t tell anyone. 

I need to recruit for my position and I am way down.  I actually make calls while I am driving which is very dangerous since I am then not looking at the road.  Don’t tell anyone.  Then I am stopping by a clients to sell a little life insurance on the way home.  Jack is out trying to get the last few thousand that she needs.

No  FB today.  Yesterday he was in rare form.  I hadn’t seen him for a while.  I told him about the Success Principles book.  He said he loves to read and reads books every night.  I was shocked.  He said that Ernie of all people told him it was a way to escape his life.

5 minutes left – I am about to fall asleep.  I am not used to these 4:30 AM wake – ups since there was a 3 day weekend.  I feel like I am crashing right now.  Well, time to pack up.  Nothing unusual except that the exercises in the Success Principles book are not easy.  Imagine how you want your life to do if there were no obstacles.

I used to do this exercise back when we were in Amway, but I gave up and got cynical (sp).  So, digging out these dreams again and dusting them off is not easy.  I know one is a passionate, loving relationship to a husband that I love and cherish.  Another is to weight between 130 and 135 and be fit and healthy.  To have clothes that look great and are comfortable as well as are stylish and I love them.  A home on the water that I am proud of – where I can entertain (if I want to) is uncluttered and feels great to be in and look at. 

OK, enough,….my eyes are clothing.  I must escape.