When I don’t know what to do, I tend to not do anything. A great idea one minute can disappear very quickly and I don’t even know it’s gone. And then some day way later I remember and wonder what the hell happened to it.
This happens with my book, with work, with even thinking about a relationship, or with anything else new..
So, what can I do about it? What can I do so that the things I am passionate about but I’ve never done before do not disappear?
Suggestions I have received:
- Explore the topic – make it fun and not significant
- Ask for help
- Chunk out managable tasks
- Take an action without trying to get it right
- Do something small
- Figure out what I am willing to be “ordered” around
- this needs a little explanation I think – I have been “ordered” around not getting criticized, being liked, and being “good” – this gets me no where, I’ve decided. I don’t get what I want and people get mad and upset anyway. So, I have decided to be organized around something new – Today I am being organized around LOVE.
- And, this is important for me today since my sister is in town. I think she is mad at me and I am going to respond with love instead of what I really want to do which would be to completely tell her off. Wish me luck with this.
- And, there is someone at work who is acting the same as my sister. I really want to let this person have it as well, but I am going to be organized around love instead.
- Actually, that’s bull shit. I’m not really being that good. I am just ignoring this person for now. So I can’t say I’m REALLY ACTUALLY doing the love thing. But it sounds good, right?
- And now that I’ve been truthful about my nastiness maybe I’ll have some freedom. We will see.
OK, that’s enough. I will explore this topic more at a later date. Gotta go. Have a great night!!!
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