Nothing’s wrong (or is it?)

I’m back from vacation.  At my desk.  Behind in my numbers, but not giving up.

I’ve been calling and emailing all day.  NOTHING!!!

And I don’t have the luxury of going down the tubes.

But I want to. My team is decimated.  One agent disappeared to Mexico.  One agent is in bed with vertigo.  Two of them are out there working but not selling.

My veterans are great, but not fully engaged so are sporadic.

So that leaves me.  And I am sucking wind right now.  Well, I am selling a little, but not enough to even get close to the weekly quota.

The other night we had a work dinner that I almost missed.  It was my first week back after 2.5 weeks away.  Even though I have had 7 out of 7 successful quarters in the last two years and I am actually looking like a winner, because I’m behind this quarter, I feel like a loser.  And because I can’t see how to make FAME happen (that’s what they call hitting our numbers),  I feel all alone and that I can’t do it.

So at this dinner, they were picking two winners to win $250.  I asked God for a sign.  I was feeling like I just needed something so I wouldn’t give up.  And they called my name.  I won the $250.  I was excited.  I thanked God for the sign.  And I was happy.

But that was last Thursday.  Now it’s Monday.  The sign has completely worn off.  What I need is another sign.

So, I’m going to create my own sign.  I never could see how to accomplish FAME in any of the last 7 quarters.  I did it anyway.  I was behind most of the quarters and did it anyway.

All I have to do is make appointments.  I have been calling the same people and it’s time to find new ones.  I have a whole list of contacts.  I need to just keep calling.  I need more in the pipeline.

I will not give up.  I will ask God for BIG miracles.  I will keep going.

(Even though my brain is telling me it’s futile – I just had to add that – this pep talk is only half working, so let me vent in my parentheses – NOTHING IS WORKING – NO ONE IS RESPONDING – EVERYONE DESERTED ME – I’M ALL ALONE – NO ONE ELSE CARES – I COULD DIE AND NO ONE WOULD EVEN KNOW – I’M SUPPOSED TO BE DATING AND I DON’T EVEN LOOK AT MEN – I’M OVER MY WEIGHT WATCHERS POINTS FOR THE WEEK – LIFE SUCKS – MY COTTAGE IS PROBABLY FLOODED FROM THE RAIN – I JUST WANT TO GO TO SLEEP – HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

OK – I feel better now.  (OR AT LEAST I FEEL LIKE I SHOULD.)

Back to the phones.  Thanks for listening.