I forgot …………

I have been in a funk since I got back from vacation.  And, no matter what mind tricks I played on myself, I couldn’t get rid of it.

Tonight, I had a call from Kayla, an old friend who is starting a practice where she works with people on many different levels to identify their vision and bring it to life.  (I am paraphrasing, not sure if that’s how she describes it.)

I had offered to have a session with her so that I could share her work with people.

When I got on the phone, I was listless and despondent and had no energy, describing how I was stuck and felt powerless since I’ve returned to work.

Through the course of the hour, Kayla listened and asked gentle questions.

“Where would you like to be next year, on Halloween of 2018?”

In a great relationship, successful in a business I love, sharing my life with my wonderful man, money is abundant, my book is published, and I am speaking around the world promoting my book and blog.

“What would you have to do to have that happen?”

Oh, I thought.  Shit.  I remembered just a few weeks ago in Canada that I gave up trying to get it right, trying to get loved, and being afraid.  I forgot all about that.  The burden, heaviness and frustration had come back since then in full force.

“I would have to give up my struggle.  Be present.  Spread joy.  Flirt.  Be of service,”  I finally said.

I felt lighter.  My shoulders lifted.  I could breathe again.  I felt the burden of the world slide off my head.

“Wow,”  I told Kayla.  “I feel free again.  And I knew all that already.  It had just disappeared.”

“How are you going to keep it in existence in your life?”

“Good question.  It already comes up on my phone every morning.  It just doesn’t do anything for me.”  I changed the words around on the morning message.  “OK that might work better.  I will continue to answer that question.”

We talked for a while and I thanked her.  Kayla really has a gift for listening and empowering.  I wish her the very best and will continue to learn how to live in the middle of love, health, happiness and full-self expression.  It’s a lot easier then trying to get it right so I could be loved.   I already am.  I just forgot.

Thank you Kayla for a priceless gift.