I have a very good friend who has been helping me. He knows alot about me because of the type of healing that he has been doing. And I am very grateful for everything he has done for me.
He has been learning a new technique for healing and not been charging me.
It’s great. So what’s the problem?
He has made comments about us having sex.
And that made me uncomfortable.
And I haven’t said anything. And it’s just like with the girl at work that I wrote about this week. It’s like I can’t talk.
Am I’m afraid. I’m afraid maybe I made that up. Maybe he won’t want to be my friend anymore. Maybe I’m too immature. Maybe alot of things.
And I am literally frozen in terms of talking about it.
I could say, “I’m uncomfortable with this conversation.”
Or with the topic. Or having sex without a committed relationship. Or anything. And why would that be bad? Why am I afraid?
Maybe what that means about me. Do I have a problem? Am I uptight?
Or I could give up my disempowering conversations about myself:
I can’t trust myself.
I do stupid things.
I shouldn’t be the way I am.
And, instead I can say I am a CRAZY GENIUS AND I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT I WANT AND NEED!!! AND I’m not comfortable talking about having sex with you and would like to be able to since I’m not sure that is what I want to do.
There, I said it. Sort of……..
And, I am going to send this by email to him once it’s posted, and see what happens!! It’s not speaking but it’s a form of communication. And what’s the worst thing that can happen? We will see…………….
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